Not Ready To Die

All those years took for granted, just feeling fine Never once did I think that I’d need more time, hmm I always thought I was bulletproof Couldn’t break me if they wanted to, I Was deceived by the man in my children’s eyes Hmm-mm-mm, hmm I was hiding my weakness for all those years, hmm I was told, ‘Be a man, never show your tears’ I never thought I would fall apart Was just relying on a beating heart, now Feeling closer to the end of this life and my deepest fear is that **** I’m not ready to die Not rеady to die And if I’m being honest with mysеlf, I haven’t done enough, I know I’m Not ready to die I’m not ready, no **** In this hospital bed, I might lose my mind (Mind, mind) Oh-oh, oh, I’m thinkin’ ’bout who I’ll leave behind (Behind, behind) Ooh-ooh, my two daughters and my only son I’m the person they’re relying on, yeah But I’m reminding myself that this life, it was never mine, no, I’m Not ready to die, mm-hmm I’m not ready to die (Ooh-ooh-ooh) And if I’m being honest with myself, I haven’t done enough, I know I’m Not ready to die I’m not ready, no Mmm, mmm, mmm Oh-oh-oh, oh, oh-oh-oh (Mmm, mmm, mmm) **** We’ve all gotten that call (Mmm, mmm, mmm) The diagnosis, the accident The moment everything falls quiet (Mmm, mmm, mmm) I look to myself in the mirror and I realise ‘Alhamdulillah, I’m not done yet’ (Mmm, mmm, mmm) And in that silent moment, no noise, no distractions, just some questions (Mmm, mmm, mmm) ‘Did I love enough? Did I cry enough?’ (Mmm, mmm, mmm) ‘Did I hug enough? Did I smile enough?’ (Mmm, mmm, mmm) ‘Did I allow myself to be forgiven and forgive others?’ (Oh-oh-oh) Because that call doesn’t lie (Mmm, mmm, mmm) (Oh-oh-oh-oh) It’s a second chance I don’t want to miss (Mmm, mmm, mmm) I said to myself, ‘If I’m still breathing, then I still have time If my heart is still beating’ (Mmm, mmm, mmm) ‘Then there’s still something left to give, and maybe Not being ready to die’ (Mmm, mmm, mmm) ‘Just means I’m finally ready to live’ Oh-oh-oh, oh I’m not ready to die, no, oh-oh I’m not ready to die If I’m being honest with myself, I haven’t done enough, I know I’m Not ready to die **** I’m not ready, no, oh-oh, oh, no I’m not ready, no, woah-oh-oh, oh-oh-oh I’m not ready to die Oh, will I ever be ready?